I'm not sure I want to write about this right now. I'm not even sure I want to stay up and think right now as opposed to burrowing inside a blanket and losing myself to sleep for the precious five hours before I have to be up. All I know is that I must write this here because I must document the first time I felt like I was really growing up ( Read more... )

I have exactly 10 minutes free before starting another marathon session of work, and I don't often say this, but I'm rather chuffed. I don't claim to work very hard on a daily basis, but the last 2 weeks have been a lot of work in the face of a lot of personal shit that was thrown my way. So yes, I am chuffed ( Read more... )

Little things have a way of becoming so big that they swallow everything around them. Little things make you jump around the room with unbridled joy or angry enough for you to plead temporary insanity. Little things shouldn't matter so much. But they do. I think at the end of every day, it is the little things that affect me most -- the song that ( Read more... )

In the last week, Facebook has  thrown up a slew of messages on University Week (my college's real claim to fame ( Read more... )

A friend once told me that at the end of the day, work shit is just work shit. Personal shit pulls the life out of you.

He was right. I'm just about dead. 

I can't think straight.
I'm going through classic withdrawal which is making it very hard for me to get through my days. I thought I could move on when I had to and come out on the top. That I could leave everything behind and pretend that only the good memories mattered. But as I learn every single time, this is easier said than done.

All I can ( Read more... )

She searches for him in a crowd. It is something she promised herself she would never do again... never search for anyone. Its frustrating to want something you can't have. Its even more frustrating to have it and not have it at the same time.

I am looking for a purpose to live my life. Something greater than love (lust?) and ambition (another form ( Read more... )